New Music: I Didn’t Always

If I had to describe the style of this music, I would call it “percussive folk-blues.”  I wrote this, and played and sang everything. The bass line was played by a MIDI keyboard through Mixcraft.  The drums/percussion were all played by hand: a round tambourine with a skin head played with both bare hands as a drum, a crescent tambourine played both with my bare hands and with drumsticks, a frame drum played with both bare hands, and a pair of eggshaker maracas.  The handclaps were constructed from free samples courtesy of stayonbeat.com.  No premade loops!

This is probably the most vocally challenging song I’ve ever written, and I didn’t use any pitch correction on this because frankly, Gsnap is useless on stuff written in blues scale (or at least, it’s not something I know how to tinker with).  I did do lots and lots and LOTS of editing and many takes to get the vocals right.

As I mentioned before, more awesomeness might be added later, but I took it as far as I could on my own.  If you listen, let me know if you have any ideas for what’s next.  Motown strings and horns?  Guitars?  A dance remix by someone who knows how to do that?  Re-record my vocals in a pro studio?  Speed it up?  Pitch it to other singers?  Something else?  What say you?

Sound file and lyrics are below the cut.  (Though I don’t think there’s a cut if you’re reading through FB.)

I Didn’t Always

Music and Lyrics by Andee Joyce

Now I speak my mind out loud

But I didn’t always

Now I dare to open my mouth

But I didn’t always

Back then they said pipe down

We don’t want to hear your voice

And I listened ’cause I had no choice

Now I sing all day long

But I didn’t always

Now I know I won’t do it wrong

But I didn’t always

Back then I wrote the words out

Then erased every single one

But now words just jump right off my tongue

Chorus:  And I didn’t always

Know what I have

But now I do, now I do

And I didn’t always

Know what I am

But now I do, now I do

Now I do everything that I love to do

Say everything I have to say

But I, I, I, I didn’t always

Now I know love that’s real

But I didn’t always

Now I know my appeal

But I didn’t always

Back then, I despaired no one

Could ever love me back

Almost gave myself a heart attack

Now I know my true friends

But I didn’t always

Now I know how to take compliments

But I didn’t always

Back then they froze me out

And I never stopped to ask why

They had the right to judge me from on high, high, high

(repeat chorus)

Now I know where I belong

But I didn’t always

Now I hear people say I’m strong

But I didn’t always

Back then they said be nice

And you won’t be abused

And I choked back tears of rage

But now the monster is out

The monster is out

The monster is out of the cage

(repeat chorus)

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